Dear Diary,

what have i done! i have killed my drunk but hardworking husband with a leg of a lamb which was frozen and rock hard. Patrick my husband lay on the floor dead and was killed by me. i'm a murderer and have killed my husband. who kills their husband? the fear and tragic just got to me and the thought of me losing my baby, i cannot describe in words. Todays been a bumpy ride and a life-changing situation. Rehearsing my coversation with sam made me so scared and horrific that i kil patrick and have now put my child in the worst situation. the consequences for meare going to be hard.

the thought of my child not getting to see the dad and me if i get caught by the cops is just horrific.i have just entered a small but crowded market and have the highest hopes of not getting caught by the cops or sam if she realises something perculiar about me. ill just give my all and hope for the best. I need some potatoes and a can of peas, please. sam gave me the food and I was on my way home. at home i acted natural and started to hum.